Did the title give it away? Probably….

I, Jessica Pita, have a confession to make. Plus, I just need to let it out into the open officially. Before I tell you however, I need you to know something about me. I detest ONE thing in life, failure.  Don’t get me wrong though, failure is not always a bad thing. It just shows how strong you can persist to achieve what you want. The thing is, I don’t really appreciate failure once I have pushed so hard to get to a certain goal and then see I did not push hard enough.

This week has been the longest week of my life. Considering that I am writing this Tuesday night, prior to post day. I think that says it all. I came across some information that showed an example of the one thing I wish is the last thing that would happen to me. Of course, this kind of ruined my day. Non the less I took the opportunity to convince myself that I can push harder the next time and improve. That was until my Portuguese, loudmouth brain, had to go on and open it mouth. The whole of Monday into Tuesday morning, I had this weight on me. A weight of stress and powerlessness, hopelessness even. Okay maybe I am being a little dramatic but that is what it felt like. I couldn’t find any reason to even smile. This had totally messed up my funk and smashed my self-confidence, I really felt horrible. After I finally sunk under the pressure and cried… like a big baby, to my mum. I spilled my guts and had a chat. I felt a little better but not quite the usual, you know.

Anyways, with this whole experience, I have eventually told myself off for being such a drama queen. I took out my frustration at the gym and now I am writing to tell you to NEVER pull a ‘dramatic Jess’.

Sometimes things are just going to seem to keep going in the total opposite direction of what you want and have planned for, but you always have to remember that it might be happening for a good reason. Even if the reason seems totally unclear and not what you are looking for initially. Stressful times happen to everyone, its just the way you take control of how you react to these times. This week was a great example of how life can turn on you and your expectations. Everything can come crashing down. It does not need to take you down with it.

Please promise me that no matter when and for how long moments like these happen to you, you will take the right action. If things keep coming at you from negative angles, know that you have a choice. You can either let these moments be your anchor or your wings. Personally, I prefer to soar above it all, but that is just my opinion. It’s ok to give in to your emotions but you must know when to move on. Take the experience and learn from it, instead of letting it take control of you. You control your future, so you shouldn’t allow these experiences take the wheel. They fall into the past and become irrelevant to what is to come in the future. PROMISE ME.

P.s. I hope you promised…

Ok, now if you will excuse me, that gym session took a lot out of me so I’m going to make a protein smoothy.

“Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong,” – OG Mandino